What Will She Be?

It has been such a joy living out the calling the Lord has put on our life. Not only serving the Urban inner-city community but living where we serve. I can remember about 3 years ago having day dreams of living in the city and sitting on the front porch, watching our kids play outside and building relationship with our neighbors. However, never did I quiet understand the mission field of my children until we had Mona. I'll be honest, it's been and will probably continue to be a challenge to find the balance between ministering to my children and to my neighbors. Does one come before the other? Are they both equal?

Someone once told me, "Hannah, you have no idea who Mona will be. She could be the next Mother Teresa, the next President or another wounded girl looking for love in all the wrong places. God has blessed you with her and that holds great responsibility." That thought has never left my mind. In moments where I don't know which comes first I remember, that at this point in time, Mona is a lost soul just like any one of my neighbors. And on that day when she (we pray) accepts Christ it is my responsibility to disciple her as I would anyone else here in North St. Louis.

Now of course there will be times where I may have to give special attention to a neighbor who's struggling, or someone who is just starting their walk with the Lord. However, I have a new found confidence that if I'm taking my responsibility as Mona's mother as seriously as the Lord sees it, I can trust the Lord will grow her understanding of Him deeper through my sacrificial lifestyle for my God.

Who comes first? Neither, their will be seasons of change and I will constantly need to lean on my Lord to find the balance.

Are they equal? No, they both hold special value that's uniquely theirs.

What will Mona Be? I don't know but I pray she will be the best version of what God wants her to be!

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